Keep On Keeping On.

They call it stormy Monday but Tuesday’s just as bad
Wednesday’s worse and Thursday’s also sad

– T-Bone Walker, “Call It Stormy Monday” (1947)

Monday mornings. They are never easy. After two and a half weeks of not having to wake up early to go to the office, it is especially difficult to get going.

This morning I was rather horrified also to discover that there seem to be far more grey hairs on my head than there were a month ago. Have I not noticed them before or has the stress of recent events caused that? It is, unfortunately, a possibility. My inner state these days can easily be described as highly agitated and stressed.

How long can I keep going like this? I have only had two therapy sessions but I am already wondering whether I need to ask if SSRI’s are right for me. As much as I yearn for an emotional relief, I am apprehensive about mixing Methylphenidate with an SSRI. Is pot a legitimate alternative?

For the first time in years I’m getting heart palpitations and irregular heartbeats. I haven’t had to endure that since before I was diagnosed with ADHD-PI and started on Methylphenidate (Ritalin). It used to help control depression and anxiety as by-products of ADHD-PI but somehow this is no longer enough.

For the sake of myself and those around me I have got to figure out a way to want to live and to figure out how to forget the woman I love.

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2 thoughts on “Keep On Keeping On.

  1. Hey, the anti-depressants, aka SSRI, start to take affect about 2 weeks after you start taking them. I don’t know about combining them with pot or Ritalin, but I do know you have to give them a little time to kick in. Like every thing else, give it a little time. And keep writing.

    • I have not yet started taking anti-depressants nor spoken to my doctor about them. I’m thinking about doing it though. Though I imagine combining pot and anti-depressants would be a waste of both pot *and* anti-depressants. 🙂

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