Growing up in a society and culture where “you don’t talk about feelings and emotions” has certainly left an imprint on me. For years I have been struggling with darkness in my mind but at first I thought that this was normal and everyone felt that way. Later, I considered it to be a cultural idiosyncrasy.
In my case, depression and anxiety are comorbid conditions extant out of a learning disability that went undiagnosed for most of my life. To paraphrase Lewis Black, “I got a trifecta from hell.”
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I figured it would be more productive than load up on alcohol, blood dilutants and go cut my veins open in a bathtub.
In the days of muzzle-loading muskets, the term was most frequently used to refer to the first wave of soldiers attacking a breach in defences during a siege. It was likely that most members of the forlorn hope would be killed or wounded. (Wikipedia: Forlorn Hope)
In modern parlance, the term “forlorn hope” came to denote any lost cause.