Looks like I am again mountain bound for this weekend. I will try to take the time to enjoy myself and be in the moment rather than in the past.
My dearest love,
Today I have made another step in trying to move on. Clearly, the road ahead of me is hard and painful. I remember how just recently we came to this same place for rock climbing. Your excited face upon having completed a route stands before my tear-filled eyes as if it happened mere seconds ago rather than months. You were scared first but You overcame your fears and I was so proud of You and happy for You.
I have loved rock climbing for years but now it does not feel the same without you by my side. The smell of chalk, the burning skin of my palms from gripping the rock, the spectacular views,
nothing gives me pleasure anymore.
How do I forget You? How do I love again without You? How do I just start taking pleasure in things I have always loved?
Tomorrow is another day and everyone keeps telling me that very soon I am certain to meet someone who will love me as much as I would love them.
But all I want is You! All I want is your love!
Will I ever see You again? Will our lives cross paths? Will You cross to another side of the street if you see me coming?
As much as I wish to stop loving You I do not want to stop loving You. How could I not love You?
I miss You. I want You in my life. And I still love You.