And once again I am going rock climbing with my group which also includes the EX today. Except that today she is with her new boyfriend. Perhaps Yours Truly has learned to better master the emotions (I have started doing yoga few weeks ago) or perhaps because all the work-related stress and pressure (things are not going well these days) have numbed my senses, but I am able to appear relaxed and friendly. Although, to be honest, I do not necessarily feel that way inside. It would seem that my lot in life is to ache for not seeing her and to hurt when I am. Buddha believed all life contains suffering and in learning to navigate that suffering is where we find joy. That seems doubtful if not outright masochistic. However, in learning to navigate the suffering that we might find a way to live with the pain in our souls and perhaps even find some peace. Namaste.
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Forlorn Hope: A Diary Of A Broken Heart 
Kulitnya putih bersih, dengan betis yang woow, berambut
menantang pastilah perempuan indah ini punya nafsu
seksual yang liar, itu kata temanku yang pengalaman seksnya tinggi Buah dadanya menonjol menyembul
dari balik gaun tidur itu, apalagi dikala dia melangkah di sampingku, samar-samar dari
sudut mataku menonjol menawan payudaranya yang putih lembut
“Uh , apa ini gara-gara film itu?”, batinku lagi
Imajinasi bos aon338 mulai kurang didik, atau
selama ini saya mengamati cs senantiasa menerapkan kutang seksi
dan berhijab jadi saya tak tahu format tubuhnya yang
hakekatnya, langsung saya memasukkan bayang-bayang ke dalam adegan film tadi
“Hmm ”, tidak sadar mulutku mengeluarkan bunyi itu
“Ada apa, Di?”, isteri bos aon338 itu memandangku dengan alis berkerut
“Eh , kau ngelamun yah, ngelamunin siapa sih?
cs yang seksi?”, tanyanya
memperhatikan cs seksi dada bos dan leader aon338 berdesir sesaat pandangan mataku tertuju pada belahan dadanya
I think all life does contain suffering and we do grow stronger for each of those events which we survive. I think that also means we come to terms with things and maybe that is the way to greater peace. I sure hope so!